If you’re not scared, if you’re not worried — you’re not taking a chance.

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I’m feeling very sad today. Not depressed sad, but more nostalgic thinking about this past summer and all the awesome races I got to run. I trained so hard and spent so much time out on the trails early in the summer mornings watching the sun come up. It was so rewarding and fulfilling because it was all so much bigger than I was. I think that’s what draws me to races. There’s something magical about putting on the bib and planning out GU times, pace times and start times. You’re part of this huge, giant race – you’re a piece of the bigger picture. Racing and actually competing is one of the most exciting parts about being a runner. On the other hand, I also like the nice relaxed runs. The runs where you enjoy every moment and you’re reminded why you love this sport. Being a runner is one of the most fulfilling things I’ve done in my life. And now, as November rolls around in Northeast Ohio, I am filled with dread as all of these rewards and feelings will now be confined to a small, crowded gym for the next six months.

runnin-quoteIt’s enough to make me cry really. What I wouldn’t give to wake up early on a warm summer morning and hit the trails early before work. Now it’s cold and dark outside as I’m dragging myself out of bed at 5:30 a.m. to get to the gym. Worse – sometimes I have to go to the gym after work when it’s filled with high school meat heads who take up the entire weight area and high school girls who are just there to socialize with one another.

I’m missing my long weekend runs too. Some weeks I dreaded them, while other times I looked forward to them, but I always felt amazing afterwards. I knew I could officially enjoy the weekend after a long early Saturday run. Now I’m stuck running five miles on a treadmill in a stuffy gym with people running directly next to me, stomping away on their own squeaky treadmills. Even worse, sometimes you get kicked off after an hour. I’m sorry, but how am I supposed to get in 13 miles if I have to get off the treadmill every hour and wait for another one to open up? It’s awful and I’m critically depressed and it’s only the beginning of November. not-scared

How does anyone do it?! How do runners stay motivated and on their A game during the long, cold winter months? How do you train hard all winter? I am tossing around the idea of running the full Cleveland Marathon near the end of May, but giant red flags are waving in my head. I HATE INDOOR RUNNING. Why would I put myself through that awful training during the coldest part of the year? Why Cassandra why?! …..…and then right as I am about to make up my mind that I won’t do it, I hear that I quietly answer myself…because I am missing marathon training more then I ever could imagine. Because I know that if I sign up for that race I will feel like I did this past summer. I will have that feeling that I am a part of something bigger than myself and all these past’s winters I didn’t know what that was like, and now I do… 

Look in the mirror — there’s your competition.

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Well…it happened…

I signed up and am officially running the Akron Marathon on Saturday, September 28. marathon

It still seems unreal. I’ve dreamed about running a marathon for years — even when I thought 4 miles was soooo long during my early college years of running. Now, I finally feel ready enough to attempt it.

All summer I went back and forth with the decision to run it or not. I had planned to do it and then suddenly prices dramatically increased. Then I was out of commission for three weeks because I got my wisdom teeth out and developed a terrible infection. Then people I spoke to warned me “Oh no you don’t want to run Akron as your first marathon.” Or “It’s stupid, don’t ever run a marathon.” Etc. Etc. Etc.

I got so inside my own head that I shut out the idea for a little bit. Then suddenly something just clicked inside of me. I trained all summer (well minus three weeks) and I knew that the Akron half marathon would be too easy. I wanted to challenge myself. I wanted to feel proud of myself. I wanted to be the person I had watched at the Cleveland Marathon finishing strong and crossing mile 26.2.

Suddenly I felt a huge surge of inspiration and motivation. I would never be more ready then I would be right now. Of course I would (and am) continuing to train up until the race, but if I didn’t take advantage of this right now, I would spend all winter wondering what if?

Of course I’m still terribly afraid. I’m petrified I’ll get to mile 18 and just be done, but I’m also so excited that it keeps me awake at night. The past two weekends I woke up with a giant smile at 7 a.m. because it was the day for my long run.

I’m also nervous because I’ll be running it alone. Of course there will be the other 2,000 runners, but in general, none of my friends will be there running next to me. The BF just could not do it with his bad knee and of course he feels awful about it, but I’m not holding it against him. This is more of my dream now and I’m finally going to make it happen. I’m scared out of my mind, but I was even more scared to have to wait a whole year to get this opportunity again.

Stay tuned, because this race happens in three weeks!

The BF and I at this weekend's home opener.

The BF and I at this weekend’s home opener.

In other races and life news, I’m a happy gal because my Cleveland Browns are back at it! I’m sad that summer is ending (actually borderline depressed), however I love football season!

I also ran the South River Winery Vineyard Run two weekends ago and it was awesome, but undoubtedly the toughest course I’ve ever ran before. It was all grass trails in and around the grapevines of the winery. Of course it was cool and very scenic, but after almost twisting my ankle 28 times and missing my 10K PR time by two minutes, I was happy to see the finish line.

Friends, myself and the BF post race.

Friends, myself and the BF post winery race.

That’s it for now. I am so focused and excited that I’m practically giddy about it being 91 degrees today, because I plan to get in at least five miles tonight after work. I’ve got to keep this motivation and fire lite!

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Death by Lack of Motivation…and NE Ohio Winters.

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Ugh. I have not been feeling running lately. Does anyone else ever get like this? I love running, usually. But these past two weeks I have been burnt out both mentally and physically when it comes to running.

I got to week 10 of 18 of my training schedule for my half marathon and suddenly hit a wall. I have not ran in TWO weeks to the day today. Eeeek. Of course I’ve continued cross training with spinning classes and elliptical sessions, even a few cross country skiing workouts, but for real…14 days since my last run?!

Cross Country Skiing Workout

Cross Country Skiing Workout

But the truth is that I just cannot get myself back out there to run. On week nine I ran 11 miles in 21 degree weather. It was awful by every definition. At one point during the 11 miles I think I started crying, but it could have been the sleeting snow whipping at my face for over two hours. The following weekend I set out to do 12 miles (it was about 40 degrees) and then my watch decided to stop working without me knowing, so I had no idea how far I actually ran. At that point I was so annoyed I kind of just threw in the towel right then and there. Then the following weekend was filled with non-stop St. Patrick’s Day celebrations and the next weekend we got four inches of snow and ice in wonderful Chardon, Ohio. With my moral and spirits sinking, I didn’t even put up a fight to skipping my long weekend runs the past two weeks. Of course I felt guilty, but deep down I was kinda relieved.

Even today at 37 degrees, I wanted to get out there and go for a quick four miles, however here I am blogging and finding every other excuse on the planet not to go. Then I beat myself up over it when I don’t run and just settle for spinning instead. And at this point setting foot on a treadmill at the gym makes me want to die.

Hmm...not so much lately.

Hmm…not so much lately.

Is this battle going on with any other runners? What do you do when you’ve just lost it? I cannot even get myself to run four miles, let alone 13. I went strong for ten weeks and now I cannot find that same inspiration and motivation to save my life!

I think the snow and the cold weather have a lot to do with it. I’ve been hanging out at the gym since November and I’m starting to get cabin fever. I need fresh air, sun, pavement, shorts and any weather over 60 degrees would be fabulous.

What is everyone’s secret to keeping inspiration and motivation alive? How do you not give up on your dreams or goals even when you are burnt out and tired?

I’ll leave you with this picture. I seriously laughed out loud when I saw it on Pinterest yesterday.

Seriously LOL

Seriously LOL

A little Friday afternoon motivation.

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Stumbled upon this great fitness blog the other day.

Amazing how much I can relate to it. Here’s the full post that I really related to.

Some highlights:

“Working out regularly helps me feel strong and powerful. It makes me feel capable and accomplished in a way that almost nothing else in my life has ever affected me. It drives me to work harder, to be a better person, to always be improving myself—inside the gym and outside.”

“I love the simple look, head nod and small wave that runners exchange on the street, which to me always says, ‘I’m in the club, too. Thanks for showing up today. You rock.'”

“And as I get stronger, faster, fitter, better…I stand taller, feel better about myself and appreciate all that my body has achieved.”

“I don’t care what I weigh, but I do care how much weight I can lift and how many miles I can run. That says so much more about who I am and what I’m worth than any stupid scale can ever tell me. I don’t care what I look like while I’m doing these things—just that I show up and try my hardest.”

“My experience with exercise has been an education is self-care and body awe. When you put the work in, you do see changes and improvements. It’s a virtuous cycle that feeds on itself. You exercise. You feel good. You take better care of yourself. You appreciate your body. You lose weight, or maybe you don’t, but either way, you feel good about yourself, so you keep on going. Eventually, the weight takes care of itself.”

Great post by this blogger, great motivation and inspiration. (Although I’m taking the next two days off so my PAINFUL shin splints can heal!)

Keep Running!

Runner’s Beat

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“Crap.”

I was sitting in the locker room at the gym a few days ago when I reached into my bag to retrieve my iPod, and remembered it was sitting nicely on my desk all the way at my apartment. I was already laced up, ready to go and I knew it would be a stupid decision to try and go back for it.

iPod

iPod running

I convinced myself that running without music couldn’t be that bad, and I headed to go grab a treadmill. As I began to run, I could hear every little sound around me and I told myself to run for 15 minutes and I’d call it a day. I heard everything from the annoying fan blowing over my head, to the girl gasping for breathe next to me, to the familiar and annoying sound of the belt beneath my feet. There was no way I was doing my normal 33-minute run on the treadmill that day. (Don’t ask why it’s 33 minutes, for some reason I always push to that 33!)

After a few minutes of running to my own thoughts, I began to pay attention to my breathing and how soothing it almost was. I practiced the runner’s breathing technique of breathing in through your nose and out through your mouth and it made a big difference. At the end of my 33 minutes I felt great and pretty inspired because I felt like a real runner who didn’t need music!

On the way back home to my apartment, I began to think a lot about running with music and everything it offers. I always run with music because there’s no better feeling than cranking up the volume and just being out there by yourself. Music inspires and motivates me and I prefer to run with music, but there is something bittersweet about being out there with your own thoughts. Call me crazy, but I may “forget” my iPod a few times every now and again. I think it’s good for the runner’s soul to just be out there by yourself.

running with iPod - literally

running with iPod - literally

I have begun to think a lot about the types of running music and what other runners are listening to when they put some miles under their feet. What are you guys listening to when you work out or run? I know some people prefer hardcore rock music, others are more rap and I’ve even heard one guy who likes to work out to country. (I know that’s not my pick at all.)

This site is really motivational with running music, check it out and download some songs they suggest. Also another great music site is on Runner’s World.com because you can pick a playlist from some of the best runners in the world and see what they are listening to. Maybe it will push you those extra five minutes or up that gruesome hill.

I’ve put together a list of my favorite running songs, check them out and let me know what you guys think!

Personal Record’s Top Running Songs

  • Lady Gaga – Paper Gangsta
  • Nas – Hero
  • Akon – Keep You Much Longer
  • Eminem – The Real Slim Shady
  • Sam Adams – Comin’ Up
  • Kanye West – All Of The Lights

Make a separate playlist on your iPod just for a workout or for a run. That way when you are running, you’re not fumbling with the music. Name your playlist something fun like “Workin’ On My Fitness” or “Bikini Body.” Something that puts a smile on your face when you set out for that great run.